March 12th 2015 - 
I am fearful to write not because I fear that no one will read it, but for fear that someone might.
Many times I have proclaimed to friends, family, and clients..... "DO IT!!!" Whatever it is, if it is good do it. My mind spirals out of control on to thoughts as to so many times that I have given strong sound advice and then wondered Why won't they listen. If they would only listen to me they would succeed. After all I am educated, experienced, creative, type A, and some what successful.
The problem was is that I wasn't taking my OWN advice. I wasn't sharing my stories. I was telling. Not doing.
I Know this. I know this. I know this. but I do not stop. I sit here on this vicious procrastination merry go round, I blame others and say if they would only.....
Why don't I?
It's not the big things. They aren't hard things to do. Am I frozen in fear? Fear of what?
What am I so afraid of?
Do I care what what others think of me? Do I think I won't fail? Is there a chance that I could succeed?

I guess for now it is a process that I will turn to my faith and pray to God to help become unfrozen.